9-Apr-13: Tomorrow is judgment day.
I can’t say enough.
When I’m not fatigued, I’m anxious. I've got pills for anxiety but none for
energy. You’d think they don’t want me
to have energy anymore. They've almost got their wish. I've asked for THC and testosterone but have been denied.
I got 4 prescriptions filled today and arranged to have my
toes fixed Thursday, so the surest thing about Thursday is that my feet will
hurt. Oh well, I've got pills for that
too.
I’m quite sure many have noticed this for years, but let me
put in my two cents: when one who has some sense of transcendence (be it
theological or spiritual) attends to the words of power from the mainstream,
the deliberate absence of any reference to any transcendence leaves pieces of
the story out. For example, my AMA
approved Oncologist, regardless of his true beliefs, sticks to the party line,
which is, in case they have forgotten, that of scientific materialism, which is
atheistic. Another example, when David
Runciman writes a wonderful article about Democracy in America in the London
Review of Books without any place for any transcendence, he is keeping to the
party line, the mainstream, the approved academic line. You can lose your livelihood if you inject
any transcendental analysis.
So it is a curious situation. Seventy to eighty percent of Americans believe
in some transcendence and yet the official line in science, medicine, all of
academia (outside of church schools) will not allow that transcendence be a
part of the picture or discussion. It seems a strange
situation, seeing we have no official body backing up this censorship, just a
gradual drifting evolution of a country that is trying to avoid religious warfare.
Am I complaining about my Oncological treatment? Yes, in a
way I am; and yet, if I knew how to get better treatment, I’d go get it. Can you imagine getting the funding for a
scientific study of the beliefs of those with pRCC? Pardon me sir, we’d like to track you. Officially you’ve got two years to live, and
we’d like to know whether, most of the time, you feel some transcendental
benevolence on your side. We will then
ask all those we know of with pRCC, and with no other variable, with only a Yes
No option, and in 2 years we will revisit to see if you’re still alive. Eventually we will have a simple database
which tracks the longevity and one factor.
I’d like to hear the NIH committee debate that one.
Ah, no matter. Today
is today and I’m anxious. Should I
critique myself and say that a blog on pRCC is de facto an atheistic blog as
the very term, the diagnosis, the tests and their interpretations, are all
supposed to be pure AMA in style and
content; hence, I've strayed from scientific materialism. Well, it can’t be helped now. I’ll start up a more philosophic or theosophic
blog after I retire. From inside
Academia, one can still say privately, God Bless Scientific Materialism, it needs all the help it can get.
