Saturday, April 27, 2013 8:20 PM
After the wonderful retirement party, after the gracious
Reiki treatment, after all that goodness, I had to take that pill. And I must keep on taking them for the next 4 weeks.
The bloody effects have started; the details would not be
helpful. But I don’t feel as demoralized
as last time. The first time I took
Sutent I had already survived a nephrectomy and a bout with Temsirolimus (that
nearly killed me) that left me with several chronic conditions. Now I feel Sutent might not be so bad and the
further I get from Temsirolimus the better.
And, of course, I am more aware of what precautions, prophylactics, and
palliative care to take.
I feel so non-demoralized that sometimes I indulge in a
thought experiment that goes like this: even though pRCC is fatal, sometimes I
think the cancer has saved my life, I
think of the other ways I could have died, and I think that now I have some time
to do some deeper core/Coeur work.
So I hope and so I hope the best for you too.
