I always feel better when the sun comes back.
Friday was a low day. Some side effects I don't even want to talk about.
Today is better.
An hour after taking Sutent I feel little twinges in my heart and I imagine a tightness in my chest. It is so slight it might be psychosomatic, which is why I haven't rushed the symptom to the docs. My general doctor is saying that I can no longer afford to wait and see, that I need to call in every symptom, but I don't know if he understands how sensitive I can be. (Notice that I'm not using any names in this public blog, except for already public persons, such as the following.) Thomas Nagel in his latest book, Mind and Cosmos, says science can not succeed in explaining the world because it can't explain our inner life, our thoughts and feelings. The chasm is obvious to me when I mention my symptoms (my feelings) and the docs read the blood panels; I've got feelings and they have charts. This chasm is rarely bridged.
I have asked several people if the blog is working for them, and basically, I find, that I started it out wrong by giving out the url for a day rather for the whole blog. Should remedy that soon. And of course it is more information that the previous emails, but you have freedom to drop in when you feel like it. Drop in and drop out.
I also realize that blogs are categorically not logs or diaries and that a/v entertainments are expected these days; Google offers me many templates and they are all for a/v pizazz. Maybe evolution will drive me that way, but for now this is the best I can do.
Now what I need is to see if Sutent is working and then to retire. It takes patience.
